Time after Time....

As I sit before this computer asking God to guide my hands as I write, I realize it is surrender that I am truly after…..


Over the years many things have all fallen into the background of this new reality. I used to believe that I would always be slave to what people thought of me; that I would always be bound to the world’s view of success. I have lost sight of this now, but I see that being free from others is a first step in a process of surrender. I am now faced with freedom from myself, from my own take on things, from my fears and my doubts, from my preconceived notions and painful regrets, from the business I fill my day with to the things I give priority; free to be surrendered only to His voice alone, to receive His guidance. Though many moments elude me, as I grasp for such incidence, it is my goal to stay tuned with His heart and His whisper as He guides my soul to be completely aware and awakened, as never before, to His unbroken presence. I find myself captivated by these moments, so much so that I never want to leave. All else fades away and I see as He would have me see; I see men as His beautiful creation, each one a miracle to be marveled upon. I see the tree sway outside of the window as the sun sheds its rays upon the whispering leaves; I see majesty and creativity. I see transparency as a gift that should be offered even to a stranger, because small talk is pointless. I see purity in the hearts and minds of children as they play with no regard for the prison we call time. Honestly, time seems to stop…but when I glance down only a few moments on the wretched face of the clock have turned. I wish to simply stay so engulfed in His love that time, as we declare it, becomes irrelevant. That it vanishes and falls desperately short…and all that rules is the divine encounter of God. That sitting at His feet or in His arms was a priority to the start of any day; that nothing would be worth doing without first knowing His company beside us as we step into the other reality we are called to remain in... Truly I offer to all of you this one thought, that once the desire has been lit, you will no longer want to part from the truth and the pure beauty you are introduced to when He comes near. How could we ever find life like this in any other consciousness?

I read a scripture this morning and as I ponder, before His eyes, what exactly it means I feel different. I feel every fiber of my body; I have become keenly aware of all of my senses. I feel overwhelmed and thankful for Gods creativity in making me, in making all of us; Just having the moment to feel, to breathe, to know He made me is a wonder. It makes my body tingle; recognizing that every detail of me is Gods design. Nothing of me is like any other. And so the old reality comes forward in my thought and I am saddened by the notion that so many of us compare ourselves to others when we are so lovingly intended to be just us; The “us” that God breathed into existence. Honestly many thoughts have crossed my path where I believed I was small because of the way God made another; and haven’t we all felt this? Haven’t we all compared ourselves to the intellect, the beauty, the courage, the ambition, or simply the journey of another? Perhaps this is why He longs to meet with us so often; to remind us to see what miracles we all are. Perhaps this is the freedom from ourselves we must pursue! It becomes increasingly hard to appreciate Gods masterpiece if we are constantly consumed with our differences. How can we truly love each other if we do not see how loved we are through our very own amazing design? But when we know the presence of Him we are free to see His work without having to consider to our own worth, because we are assured of His love. We are basking in it!

So the scripture read, “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the Glory of God.” 1Cor 10:31

And so it read to me, do all things with the awareness that God is there….that He is with us; the greatest Glory of God being His willing and constant presence in our lives.

Have you ever truly tried to drink or eat with the consciousness of God? Try it! Really, right now! Try to drink something while thinking of God, you will find that it comes alive. The flavors and the smells become manifestations of Christ, you find yourself desperately aware of what you are bringing into the temple and deeply appreciative for whatever it is that parts your lips. Now imagine if you could do this all day, in every moment, with every breath…..it changes things doesn’t it? Wouldn’t your senses become more in tune to truth? Wouldn’t your eyes see brothers and sisters all around? Wouldn’t your intentions come alive with passion and vision like none other? Wouldn’t your thoughts remain pure and full of hope? Wouldn’t your hands appreciate the ability to feel and your ears the ability to hear all of His celestial artistry? Wouldn’t your heart fall in love again and again in correlation with the moments you called Him into conscious presence in your day? Wouldn’t you be free? Wouldn’t you be surrendered to His will? I cannot direct any of you, but I would pray that each of you sincerely attempts to practice the presence of God in every moment, and I believe you will come to know a reality worth staying in forevermore…. I love you!