Thursday, October 14, 2010

Journal entry 13 October 2010

I cannot walk away from what I've been told Father, but many days I cannot walk in it either. Perhaps I forget that you are there holding me and walking on my behalf.




As I learn to breath more deeply of You, I expect much of what I think will fall away; that truth will engage my eyes and all doubt will wither into nothingness. That I will remain safe in your arms and comforted by Your Words.





Somedays I wish I could just sit silently among Your creation and just watch as You watch and enjoy each person with every single detail in perfect view; that I may learn one day to love as You do.....My heart cries out for this freedom; the freedom to love--- I am dying to live like this and to love like this!





In that harmony and rhythm with the Three; to ebb and flow with Wisdom, Love and Peace. To offer these gifts freely to any of those who would come forward to drink...well even more to those who sink back in the shadows, to find them with such a love that they too would thirst and drink...



In order to follow Your will I must inquire of You what that is... Lord humbly I pray that You nudge my mind into this concept becoming natural to me; the tool that I would reach for in every moment. May hope arise and may my eyes see... May I never leave Your presence, not for one breath! May I never forget to let You walk with me! And so I come before You with each moment and quietly I will ask, again and again, will You walk with me, Father?



Guide my soul, let my fingers, eyes, lips, heart and mind become a symphany of Your will. May I be so bold to ask that You shall direct them all; that I may rest in the rhythm of the Three.



Free me even and mostly of myself, and of the desire to orchestrate music all of my own; without Your hand.



Let my soul respond to Your harmony alone! Just as gentle fingers lie weight upon the ivory keys and beauty is born or as the strings of this guitar resonate with the pure sound of love. It is Your song after all.....



May my days be lived out of this sound rising from deep within my soul- Your perfect melody Lord...this submitted heart doth play on, for music would be nonsense if it was not for You---- Thank You Lord!






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